Torn you ask? Yes, Im torn. I am sooooo happy Summer is almost here yet I'm really depressed that aother year went by and another year will come by. Next year is high school. I will be finally done with middle school and I will start a normal high school career with sports, friends and most importantly boys. But do I really want that? Yes I want the typical high school memories of crazy parties, fun dances, and romance. But what's all the use of high school if I already know what I wanna do for a career and want to start it. I love acting. More then anything I ever loved and probably will love. And I wanna be an actress so badly. If feel like I can become one if I try hard and work at it. And I am already. But what I'm doing is not enough. I want real jobs. Real chances to show that I have what it takes. And I feel high school is holding me back. We all get excited for high school because we hear stories about how wonderful it is and all the great memories we will make. But i feel thats the only reason Im going. Other people need high school to figure out who they are and who they want to become. I already know that. So why should I go to high school just for "the memories"? I want to start my life already. I wanna just do it. But I cant because these things are bringing me down. I want normalcy and to do what I love the most. And I dont know how I can do both.
Until then...
Im the girl torn down the middle stuck between the lines.